I was wrong when I felt
“It’s not possible to look beyond…m held back…I don’t want to regress…”
I don’t know what was it that I was waiting for. I could have tried mending old ties but still I didn’t…perhaps there lies my being human coz I never falter erring ;). I still remember the evening which brought me back the part of my life which was missing…an integral thread attached to it. There was something different…something unusual. A sense of loneliness had gripped me strong. I had stopped checking mails on my Yahoo Account and it was not until a month or so that I was generous towards it. But that eventide I logged in and to my utter dismay there wasn’t a single mail worth reading. Quite expected …Gmail rules my day nowadays. I was about to delete them all but there was this simple word which could bring a smile on everyone’s lips corona ting the subject of one of the mails… a “Hi” that caught my attention. The sender’s name seemed so familiar…but I had to pinch myself twice to ascertain it. I could have never felt so better reading any of his earlier mails than this time. It was not lengthy neither did it bear any kind of formality… but it had the dint in it to thaw the ice in our friendship subtly. It brought me back my smile…my friend…and above all my trust.
I dint know how to start the conversation with…should it be another of those “hi’s” (the most meaningful word I have ever come across) or a “thr” (as I usually start off with) or just a smile (As I rarely do ;)). But once we started talking …trust me I didn’t feel the unwanted hiatus that had grappled us once. It was so nice…so pleasant talking to him and after all those months I had many things to share too (that included the reasons he keeps on asking me treats today: P).Things had changed a lot…if not in his life but definitely in mine…but happily the persons were still the same :). Since then life has set sail smoothly…and I have nothing to brood over. The colors of life are myriad and reasons for happiness infinite…we just have to search and make them a part of our beautiful life and our extraordinary psyche.
I don’t feel the awkwardness any more…neither do I have to be hypo critic.I am the way I am…candid and felicitous. I can still share anything under the sun with him. He hasn’t changed either nor has his self proclamations of being handsome ;)…flippant and frivolous as always. I think I have begun to know him much better now…as a friend and as a person both. Things could have got better much earlier had I read the comments on my earlier blogpost but Ididn’t. If I start counting the number of times I have failed to make thingsbetter…I would live all my life with an unforgiving guilt. When life’s good why should I look back for the wrong reasons? Destiny finds its way.
I guess I have met a soul who could be loved…hated but never ignored. He has an estimable ego in him and is a knight heart and soul. Falling apart with him was a lovely experience…a memorable chapter of my life’s odyssey because it has taught me to be divine. Life’s the greatest teacher… thanks to the persons who have beautified it.
I believe he became a part of my life for a reason…and has decked it with unflawed footprints.
This tryst has silenced the stormy thoughts of dubious glances. It had submerged but never got uprooted and today it rises above all fetters with no strings attached. The impressions of this fine friendship will continue to be “the best” ones…as ever.
